Recently I was telling a friend how I tend to think of my friends as being the age they were when I first met them and I have to count up to where they are now. But, more worryingly, I tend to think that I'm that age too and when I meet up with old friends and think, 'oh, you're getting older' I realise that they're probably the best mirror I'm going to get. It probably sounds crazy when I say that I forget that people get older but I do. I forgot it with my parents, I continue to forget it with my in-laws and I'm forgetting it forever where I'm concerned.
In 1970 I was 13-years-old and living in that schizophrenic world of knowing one moment that I was IT and then the next moment being in deep despair and knowing that I would never be good enough for anything. Mostly I carried my crushes secretly to spare myself from all the things that go with being 13-years-old because I was a fairly unconfident teenager and wasn't part of the set that set the social rules for what we could and couldn't like. Although I had the days where I behaved as if I was the most important person in the world, I wasn't convinced enough by this that I could set a trend so I would tend to wait and see who I was meant to be crushing and then carry on my own little love affairs in secret. The treacherous teenage heart.
I really can't remember where James Taylor fitted into all this but Johnny is convinced that his sisters thought he was fab so either his sisters were as uncool as I was or else we were all part of the zeitgeist. For some reason we ended up talking about James Taylor yesterday evening and the song, Sweet Baby James, which I loved then and still love now. Johnny couldn't remember it so I brought it up on You Tube; there was the 1970 version which we played and we talked about how his sisters had loved him and I had thought he was lovely. Then I found the later version and …you know……well, you know, it was 38 years ago so what did I expect?
ps:(and I'm not going to tell you how many times I've added and subtraced 1970/2008 because 38 years seems like a loooooooong time.)
pps: (and they don't make tank tops like that any more either!)